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09:30pm 29/01/2014
  Мне доставит большое удовольствие иногда там с вами встречаться».
Брокеры не были «инсайдерами» в обычном смысле слова, и письма такого рода поступали в КЦББ постоянно.
Используя в качестве изолятора нефть, как объяснял Тесла на своей лекции, Браун сумел создать напряжение в 40 000 вольт, 25 000 из которых пошли по проводам, превратившись по мере приближения к выставке в нужные частоты.
.ever just feel ...   
08:36pm 03/12/2005
mood: broken
like you dont mean anything to anybody?

that you are a big let down and disappointment?

that you will never be able to trust anybody in the world based off of your past?

like crying for hours upon hours for no reason at all and while feeling that way you actually do cry for hours upon hours?

like you are the cause for all of the divorces you have gone through?

I do, all the time.
01:41am 25/11/2005
mood: I LOVE YOU!!!

you are AMAZING!!


i have come to the conclusion   
08:10pm 15/11/2005
mood: broken
no matter how much you need somebody to be there for you...they never will be.

there will always been an excuse
Merry Christmas Sara.....   
11:32am 13/11/2005
mood: numb
Your parents are getting divorced and we might have to move out because we might not be able to afford the house we bought not even a year ago.

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did i call it or what?   
01:09am 10/10/2005
mood: blank
nothing will change. we will still be friends no matter what. I promise.

that worked out well didn't it.
10:38pm 14/08/2005
mood: loved
Listen To Your Heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

I love you, but you dont know that yet.

12:03am 30/07/2005
mood: Numb
Alot of things just suck right now.

I am more than happy that my friends are happy with their boyfriends. Its so awesome for them. But it sucks because it has changed so much. We dont really hang out that much at all nor do we really talk. And when we do, its different or it just silence or its all about the boyfriends. so I dont try anymore. Especially with krystle moving away. I can see it already, we dont go to the same school anymore, she has her boyfriend, she moved further away, and she is not going to be working at amc. Sooner or later we wont even talk anymore. I can just tell it happens all the time.

I miss chris more than anything. I miss holding him, I miss hugging him, I miss kissing him, I miss hanging out with him, I miss talking to him, I miss getting excited about working with him, I miss us not fighting, I miss him coming over, I miss me going over there. I miss chris. Its killing me. Its so hard to explain and to keep myself "stronger" I fight with him but in the end, its tearing me to shreds. It really honestly is. He was one of the most important people in my life and it feels a big part of me is missing. As stupid as it sounds it really does. I had contemplated telling him that I loved him. I have had more feelings for him than anybody in my life. and it hasnt just been since we started "dating" its been from the beginning where I have cared about him. Everything is just killing me.

It feels like I have lost my best friends and the one person in the world that I care the most about.
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09:37pm 24/07/2005
mood: blah
"It's a feeeling that never leaves your body when you have it makes you feel as if you can conquer the world nothing else matters to you when your with that someone you can never stay mad at that person no matter how bad the damage, i believe in love i never thought i would fall in love and if you fall out of love it was never love to begin with i know im still young but i feel this could be the one."

But im getting over him, right....
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09:54pm 17/07/2005
mood: Shattered into amillion pieces
As of now, I honestly don't know what to do. I really do care and have feelings for you. I didn't want any of this to end but not only did you lie to me, I had to find things out from other people. You know me inside and out, you know that the worst thing in the world to do to me is lie to me. I told you not to hurt me and I told you not to lie to me. You did both. Nobody really honestly knows how I feel about you. Not my friends, not you, and sometimes not even me. I realize it more and more each time I see you that I really care about you more than I thought I did. You say you see something happening in the future but I cant wait and let myself keep hurting. This is killing me inside more than I will ever tell anybody. You make it seem so easy. You say you care and part of me knows you do but now I cant believe you. I think of you constantly and it only hurts more and more knowing there is nothing there. I want to be friends with you just like before. I want to be best friends with you. I want to tell you everything. But I cant because I dont trust you. Its so hard to be friends with you because everytime I see you. I want to kiss you. I want to hug you. I just want to be with you. You tell me you feel the same but its just hard to believe. Its hard for me to accept everything that is going on. I really didn't think that you could ever hurt me as much as you did. I let my emotions get involved because you told me it was okay. Because you told me that yours were/are there. So I did. And I got hurt. Once again.

</3 Dispair, heartbreak, and distraught Lessons of being let down can never be taught Feeling alone with you hopes crushed You stay away from happiness to remain untouched
02:25am 17/07/2005
mood: broken
You broke my heart and made me cry. You left me here bruised and torn apart. No more amc boys.
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01:44am 14/07/2005
mood: depressed
fuck the world
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07:44pm 09/07/2005
mood: depressed
definitely hating the world.
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03:19am 07/07/2005
mood: =0)

The End <3
02:46am 30/06/2005
mood: drained
Definitely wanting to die.
Definitely annoyed with selected people.
Definitely torn right down the middle.
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03:03pm 28/06/2005
mood: excited

05:10am 27/06/2005
mood: bored
About Me
Hair Colorright now...a reddish blondish
Eye Colorgrey
Have You Ever
Fallen for your besfriendyes...im still fallen too
Kissed someone who was just your friendyes
Been rejectedyes
Been in lovedont know
Used someonehaha josh, for his truck. lol. long story
Cheated on someoneno
Been cheated onYes
Done something you regretDont believe so. no regrets. just learn from it
Do you ...
Color your hairAll the fuckin time
Have tattosnot yet
If so how many
Have any peircingsyes
If so how manyears. used to have tongue and belly button
Have a bf/gfno. but it feels like it lol. dont ask
Like thunderstormslove them
Ever get off the damn computerhaha. sometimes
Have you/Do you have...
Considered a life of crimenope
Considered being a hookerlol. i am already. jk
Coneidered being a pimpi am official pimp shit biatches
Split personalitiespeople say i do. lol. just dont piss me off
Panici have before
Depression/Considered suicidnot so much anymore. nope not really at all.
Right now..
Current clothesTank top, and shorts
Current moodhappy, but annoyed. friends that choose boys over friends make me mad.
Current hairstraight
Current musicBlessed Be Thy Name
Current annoyanceKrystle. cause of her stupid boy
Current perfume/cologneDont know the name.
Current thing you should be doingSleeping. thats what normal people do at 5am
Current crushChris Montano
DrinkRoot beer
ColorElectric Blue
Candykit kat bites
Tv Showfull house. boy meets world.
Moviephantom of the opera, peter pan.
Placeoutside at night or during a storm
Person to talk toChris
Do your perfer..
McDonalds or Burger KingMcDonalds.
Marry the Perfect Lover or the perfect friendperfect friend. you can improve on the lover part ;)
Root Beer or Dr PepperRoot Beer
Sunshine or RainRAIN
Spring or Fallfall
Winter or Summerwinter
Vanilla or Chocolateboth
Snowboarding or Skingnever done either
Lights on or Offoff
Are you...
Open Mindedmost of the time
Bad Temperedhaha. if ya piss me off
Attractivei dunno. you tell me.
Bored Easilyyes.
Uniquei dunno. lol.
What do you like in a Girl/ Boypersonality
Hair colorany
Long or short haireither
Body Typedont care. just protect me
How would you describe yourselfi dunno. im just me. i can be nice if you dont piss me off.
Do you have any Pets?yes
Have any syblings?kind of
What do you want to be when you grow up?in love. i want to be in love
Do you wanna get married and have kids?if i find a perfect boy
What is your best physical Trait?eyes
What is the best thing about your personality?I stand up for myself and dont put up with shit. i say whats on my mind no matter what
What words do you overusefuck
Whats the most annoying thing about youi dunno.
End this survey with a quote"nice shoes, wanna fuck?"

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11:20am 24/06/2005
mood: aggravated
Why did the computers crash right before I took my test??

Thats right...because I have bad fucking luck.

This aggravates me.
01:58am 23/06/2005
mood: drained
06:28pm 20/06/2005
mood: blah
Fuck Fuck Fuck.